We Miss You Jordon

Merry Christmas Bubby Boy!

Today is Jordon's 5th heavenly birthday. I can not believe that he would be 5 years old and in kindergarten if he were still with us. I found myself crying over the simplest thing today, I started bawling when I realized that this year would have been Jordon 1st Christmas play at his school. I know of all the things to cry over right. It does seem strange that I would have a school age child running around. I can't imagine what that would be like.

Every year when this day comes around it's like it hit's me all over and I'm right back to that day we found him. I go through it in my head and remember all the things that happened both the morning I found him and the night before when we put him to bed. It's terrible, but I guess I do it to myself allowing myself to re think it every year.

Well I love you Bubby Boy. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you and who you would be today. I miss you and I know your Daddy does to. Even tho he doesn't speak of you very often to me. I know he thinks about you a lot. Keep up the good work watching over your sisters. I can't wait until the day that they get to meet you. Love you Momma!